Are you starting to get it?
You wouldn't call yourself submissive, you'd rather use the terms "whipped", "broken", "destroyed". The odd thing, is that like many victims, you blame yourself, not her.
You tell yourself that she is just the sexiest women you ever met, and when she is a good mood, you have an amazing time: even when she doesn't unlock you, the sex is simply breathtaking, but when she does, you are in heaven! Her pussy is too tight, her ass a gift from heaven and her lips are just so amazing on your cock.
And then, where was that vacation in Italy... you had an amazing week with only her cheerful positivity and spent 2 of those days just naked in your hotel room (and on the beach that evening) having passionate sex. She even unlocked you on the last day! And she wants to repeat the experience...
No, you tell yourself, it doesn't excuse the broken rib. Well, maybe. For a full month, she was a warm kitten who saw to your every desire and needs. She even unlocked you for a full week-end on your recovery and let you do anything you wanted to her body, as often as you wanted! She even gave you oral sex as soon as you came out of her ass. That's being dedicated, no?
No, it's not worth it. She told her friends about your chastity! She humiliates you in stores where she fights and calls you worthless. But wait, isn't that what you wanted when you picked chastity, before you even met her? You knew you might be outed.
And that time where she had you naked with your cage when her best friend Caroline came over. That was the most amazing time, wasn't it? And just admitted that Caroline was now single and that you might have her over for a few weeks while she is apartment hunting.
Shit. That's still no promise of anything! She did go on a violent jaalous bit last week because the young chashier looked to much at you.
Wait, she is talking to you. A shower? She is inviting you to take a shower with you! God, you are happy. She can be so good to you sometimes, after all, you wanted chastity. You wanted pain. Perhaps not this way, but it's something, isn't it?
Almost everytime Karen unlocks you, it's to have passionate pleasurable sex. She never unlocks you otherwise such as to let you masturbate (it's her job to make you cum). To her, sex is a long fun thing. You might have sex for 3 to 4 hours. She might start with a blow job to relieve the build-up (and smallow it all), when let you penetrate you slowly and gently as she caresses your body and tells you how much she loves you. About a quarter of the time, she'll make you pull out of her pussy and make you finish anally. That's how she comes the best.
When you come in her vagina, she makes you lock back up right away. When she comes anally, she makes you clean up your cock, but then, wants you to sleep fully nude by her side. After a night unlocked, She wakes you up with an amazing a morning blow job and then, locks you back up herself. She even kisses the tip of the cage. That morning, she expects you to dress back up prior to breakfast, but will cook you breakfast and eat it with you while still naked. If it's a week-end, she will remain nude until she needs to dress back up or until it's time for bed. If it's not, she will strip down naked as soon as she comes back home. That night, she will be a great mood an let you have oral sex on her for hours.
Every day that she plans to have sex with you, she shaves her pussy. You often can see her do it, which builds on your anticipation. She doesn't have any fixed schedules for your unlocking and you can in theory spend weeks or months locked, but when she feels she is too hairy, she shaves and that puts her in the mood for actual sex.
Otherwise, if she had a very good day, you have sex. If she had a good day, you can do oral sex on her. If she had a bad day... well, you know what happens. She pretty much takes her frustration on you. Sometimes it's actually pleasurable in a SM way, like when she spanks you or canes you. Sometimes it even turns her into a good mood and she unlocks you for great sex.
Perhaps this song can help you understand a little more?
You are the victim of domestic abuse!.
Let's be honest, this isn't a healthy relationship. You are the victim of domestic abuse and Karen uses your chastity to try to pass her abuse as part of your fetish.
That's not to say you don't have good moments! But domestic abuse is criminal and not sexy at all. You tried to negociate a relationship and she threw it all away to do it however she wanted.
If a dominant ever does that to you, run away. That's not BDSM, it's abuse.
The good doesn't make up for the bad
Did you like this ending? If not, start again, but don't pick the same Country....